A smile that does not belong to me

I realized that the smile does not belong to me...however, if the smile can bring happiness to others, I rather create a fake smile on my face than take your smile away from others.....

Tears are falling…..my eyes cannot stop the tears from come out …. So, my heart said…let it falls….do not wipe it…..as my tears touch my lips, I began to smile because my mind said to me, these tears is a blessing from Allah….He makes you cry because He wants to show His power to you…you are such a forgetful slave….He wants to remind you in such a gentle way…so that you won't feel that He is punishing you….He just wanted you to think…

My mind and my heart gave me an advice….the smile that does not belong to you can make others happy…..so, please do not be so selfish by not letting others to have that smile…..the smile that does not belong to you is belong to others….do you ever think how many people would be pleased with the smile that does not belong to you????if you want to keep the smile that does not belong to you only for your satisfaction and keep it away from others, you are such a pathetic loser…. You think you are the winner because you could have that smile….. but, actually, you are the biggest loser…..if you want to be a winner, just let the smile goes away because it can make others happy…if only you keep that smile, the happiness is yours…..only you….whereas, if you let the smile goes away, there are many happiness that can be created….if you want to be a winner, let the smile that does not belong to you makes others happy….

My mind and my heart told me…….please do not give up if the smile does not belong to you….you can fake the smile from your face…the smile that belongs to you and can make others happy…the fake smile on your face is more precious than the smile that does not belong to you even though your heart hurts like hell…my mind said, I always bear in my thought that the pain will teach the heart to become stronger in facing the difficulties….

Then, I try to fake a smile on my face…..even it was hard to fake a smile, but I managed to do it….the fake smile that makes me feel relaxed….however, I wondered, how long I can fake a smile??????How long my heart can endure the pain?????How long my mind can keep thinking positively????

Thus, I said to myself, when time comes, just leave it to Allah…. I must put my trust in Allah that He won't let me down….He let me faced the difficulties because He loves me….He wants to hear my cries when there is no one there to lend their shoulder on me…. After this, I will try to let the smile that does not belong to me goes away because it can make others happy….i cannot keep something that does not belong to me…. Good bye…….i hope you (the smile that does not belong to me) can make others happy…. I am sorry because I hid you from others… I am sorry because I was selfish…. I am sorry because I have made you suffered… please take care of yourself, a smile that does not belong to me….thank you because you have been with me before this…. Please forgive me because I cannot understand your feeling…..

p/s: dear someone….. I know that your heart does not belong to me…..thanks 4 the smile…. I know it was my fault to express my feeling towards you…. Now I realized that the smile does not belong to me…. I know how hurt it will be to fake a smile…I know how sad it will be to force a smile…. I know how it feels to smile to those who do not deserve to have it…. I am sorry coz I always force you to smile just for me…. Truly I am a selfish person…. Now, I know how it feels, so I have to let you go…. I won't force you to smile for me coz I know how hurt your heart will be…. I know your smile is too expensive and too valuable to waste for… That's why I will set your smile free because I know I will waste it… I hope you always happy….. I am sorry coz I have hurt you…make you sad… after this, I won't do it again coz I am trying to fulfill my promises….. I hope if your smile is meant for someone, I hope he will never waste it and he is such a lucky person…..(sometimes, guys need to express their weakness…their feeling when there is no one there to hear…. I was lucky coz she had been my loyal listener and I am sorry coz I was blind…thanks my best friend….i never thought I will fall in love with my best friend who does not have a single feeling on me…..i am sorry for all the silly mistakes I have done…) thanks for the memories….. I never hate you, but I hate myself…. I will let you always happy coz I love you… if you love someone, juz let him/her happy coz love is about sacrificing yourself, your happiness and etc…. same goes when you love your Creator, you have to sacrifice all the enjoyment in the world….love is about sacrifices….

Dear friend, I am sorry…I will always there when you need me….if you want a shoulder to cry for, I will make sure I am available….if you are bored, I will try to light your day….if you are crying, let me be the one who wipe your tears away… I will try to be your best friend again without that feeling…